Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Real Bullshit of the month

Here is a crazy lady for you. Dr. Lorraine Day is a cancer "survivor". The catch here is she uses "alternative" medicine for her theapy's.  Read what this fucking crazy batshit moron thinks is the truth.  I shutter to link it but here we go anyways.

http://www.goodnewsaboutgod.com/  - Scroll down a little and it gets to the "good" stuff.

http://www.drday.com/rumors/consequences.htm   <----- Same batshit crazy bitch

I really don't know what to say but the most disturbing part is more people seem to really believe this stuff is true than I care to admit.

Friday, August 19, 2011

inside out man

I search my life trying to find something intangible.  Something that I can almost touch but never fathom.  I fear I have been given glimpses of it and that is truly a curse for now I know it is there.  For me to see the things I know through different lenses would be a benefit but I am far to ignorant of what I truly need in order to do much with myself.  I contemplate the many aspects of what it all is, what it means, why we live and consciousness.  For what are we now?  What was I once? What could have I become?

I know I must have had to lived differently but somehow life has shaped me to what I am now. How can I change that? How can you?  In a world without poise or promise what is it that any of us want?  Surely it cannot be the accumulation of wealth or things.  What of each other and family?  I have seen family as nothing but a disposable utterance  of an idea where we use them for goals and not much more.  Are we here for our own selves or can this intangible thing be something real?  Can I turn to drugs, music, meditation or are these simply different constructs with still serve to limit our awareness.  Can I look inward. What does it mean to be human?  How can a biological mistake actually mean much more than the sum of its parts.  I think therefore my electrical circuits are working perfectly.

Some writers of philosophy and history enunciate in far greater terms than can I.  Unfortunately many of these ideas are suppressed through early life in all children in America. Therefore we live our lives in false terms of other peoples beliefs without fully understanding what it is to be free in our thought.  Possibly free thought is what leads us not into greatness but into a introspective hollow.  We revere those who assimilate easily and seek the virtues of nationalism or false bravery not to speak of celebrity.  So what does one do when our moral compass is fucked from half brainwashed ideas?  Seems human societal evolution has taken us quite a while to get to where we are and who am I to self generate what a person needs to be (happy?). 

I can see that through time I have digressed my self into something not worth doing at all.  What measure of success does one seek?  A big job, big house, big portfolio with big debt and a big haired wife.  What is it exactly that I seek.  Most people would have me believe to seek the glory of god.  But what god would be reassured by me? Surely I don't reassure you the reader.  Maybe it is the human spirit to give ourselves up for the glory of others then.  I'm positive I'll end up in a more ignominious fate than helping a fellow humanist. 

I am a less than capable person.  I have disabled myself.